Did I think it would be different? I had hoped. And in fact it is. I am much better off now. At least I know its happening and hopefully I can do something to correct it. And I did not die! I drove myself to the emergency room, with 15 min’s to spare before my heart stopped. Saved my own life at 3 years sober, I have to remember that.
Sometimes all I can see are my character defects. But it is discouraging when the same old problems that were in the drunken life show that they are still alive and well. Ugh!!

Thanks